To live a life of uncertainty is to live as a normal human being.
So it is 2 am and I can not sleep if my life depended on it. The past few nights I have had zero sleep, which gives me way to much time to think about anything and everything!!! So, as an outlet I have decided to start a blog. You can hate it or love it, it doesn't really matter to me. Just remember, if you have nothing nice to say, kick rocks.
I've been trying to figure out what it is that I am going to do with my future and I am drawing a big fat BLANK! Growing up I've always had a plan of what I would do, when I would finish school and what career path I would be on. Instead of following this plan I have gone completely off track and decided to "find" myself; What that meant I still don't know. I thought I would work, save money and travel. Instead, I ended up on the retail road. Those of you that have been caught on this road before know that it is the road to hell. I had zero time for travelling, or even spending time with my family. While I was a success at it, regardless of where I was, I hated every second of it. But it is what I know and what's going to pay the bills.
About a month ago I was working as the store manager of a 12,000 sq ft store, yup at the age of 22, making no where near what I deserved. A new district manager came in and finally pushed me over the edge. To give you a little back story, the previous district manager was a stuck up, cracked out barbie doll that would sink her teeth into any defenseless creature if it meant getting ahead in the wondrous world of retail! We'll just stick to the name Barbie for now. Well Barbie pissed me off and I was ready to quite but, I stuck it out for the check. Once Barbie was promoted her heartless, red headed twin, we'll call her RHDB (figure it out), took over. I could not handle it any more and quite.This lady yelled at me and upon asking her if we could join in with the breast cancer walk in the mall responded, (and I quote) "Those people get enough money. We don't need to waste our time with petty things like that. If people die, they die." Oh the things I wish I could have told these 2 creatures.
So now I'm unemployed and thinking about my life again. I refuse to get stuck in retail hell again and have to deal with the blood sucking vampires that run these places. Oh yeah and I'm stuck in my boyfriends parents house with him and no car to leave while he is at work and no cell phone. I will probably lose it soon but this is why I am rambling on and on here.
I know that God has a plan for me I just wish he'd hurry up and let me in on it.
